On the Spectrum
To give you an idea of how cold it is outside in Minnesota right now)
Aytgancha, ta'tilda birinchi marta Marvel fan sifatida DC Comics'ni o'zim uchun kashf qildim. The Flash'ning uchta mavsumini tinmay ko'rib chiqdim. O'ziga shunchalik torta olganidan hayron qoldim. Lekin eng qizig'i bu TV Show nafaqat fantastik olam ustiga qurilgan, balki travmalar har bir qahramonning hayotining asosiy qismi qilib ko'rsatilgan.
Xullas, o'zim yoqtirgan ikki qahramonim hayoti haqida ozgina yozib ko'rdim.
Eh, ular bunchalik qiyin taqdirga loyiq emas edilar, afsuski.
It is scary to see how powerful our traumas really are..
I am not validating these cruel actions because they have traumatic experiences. I am saying that any kind of trauma — big or small can affect our lives in a dramatic level without us realizing it much. And we do not have any particular scale to measure trauma. It is there, and it affects, and it always affects...
And I know one thing for a fact — acceptance sometimes hurts. But it does not sting or burn or ache. It hurts to make you grow and live better, happier, lighter. It is a good hurt.
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I like weekends like this. About to start a new semester, new journey, full of projects, missions. Oh, I like this little life.
Btw, I am a caffeine sober for 2 months now. Only having hot chocolate or cocoa.
Qaysi kitobni o'qiyapsiz dam olish kunida?
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Yangi tushuncham haqida yozib keldim.
Sudden changes in personality is not permanent, you have to believe in healing.
...You should differentiate this in people, especially people close to you. When you see changes in them, you have to ask, help if you can. Putting blames on them, forcing them to get back to their “old self” do not work, it never works. You have to be patient. You have to be caring. You have to help them to get over things. You have to understand them. You should not avoid or leave or be a coward while they are fighting. Then, they can heal. Believe me, healing from anything takes a lot of time, effort, and help.
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The human soul, religious people would say, is made by God and so only God can know its deepest secrets. We are never truly alone, because God is always either us. In their way, religions addressed a universal problem: they recognized the powerful need to be intimately known and appreciated and admitted frankly that this need could not realistically ever met by other people.
- An Emotional Education
The School of Life/Alain de Botton
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I told my mom to write a book on this topic. I think she should. But now you can take a little peak to my biggest pain.
Happy reading :
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In love and work, life requires us to be specialists even though we are by nature equally suited for wide-ranging exploration. And so we will necessarily carry about within us, in embryonic form, many alluring versions of ourselves that will never be given the proper chance to live... We may with a certain melancholic pride remove the job search engine from our bookmarks and cancel our subscription to a dating site in due recognition of the fact that, whatever we do, parts of our potential will have to go undeveloped and have to die without ever having had the chance to come to full maturity - for the sake of benefitd of focus and specialization.
An Emotional Education
The School of Life/ Alain de Botton
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Asalim - dilbarim,
Samadim - gavharim...
- Sarvqomat dilbarim (Chingiz Aytmatov)
Teatrlarda doim bir nima bor - etni junjiktiradigan, qalblarga to'g'ridan-to'g'ri kirib boradigan, diqqat-e'tiboringizni butunlay o'ziga qarata oladigan. Birinchi marta spektaklga ko'rishga kirganimni haligacha eslayman. Yunus Rajabiy nomidagi Jizzax akademik drama teatri edi. Maktabdan borgandik, "Bahodir" spektaklini ko'rishga. 5-6-sinf edim, chamamda. O'sha birgina spektakldan keyin teatrlarga ishqim ketgandi. Yillar o'tib, Toshkent yaqin bo'lgach, imkonim bo'ldi deguncha, oilaviy har xil spektakllarni ko'rishga boramiz. Texnologiya, yoqimsiz shovqinlarga to'la dunyoni 2 soatga bo'lsa ham unuttirishadi. Haqiqiy artistlar, haqiqiy ijodkorlarni ko'rish odamga zavq beradi.
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2025 recap
I am still a sunflower. I have always been. I will always be.
Thank you all for staying with me this year.
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